In solitude, I remember:
McDonald’s hashbrowns in Brewster, NY
Tongoman finding it
Pretending to be a whale while you played chicken
Flying pigs
Thinking I found love [multiple times]
Feeling invincible
Realizing, in a hot tub of the best of friends, summers would never be the same
Orion jumping out the drive-thru window
The night we watched The Other Boleyn Girl.
Feeling proud to wear a uniform
Late nights under the stars at the end of Immokalee Road
xxx-xxx-5527
Always wanting the best for you
Regretful that I let you go
Cutting out a lemon shark’s jaw
Experiencing a taste of independence that night in Wildwood Hall
Desperately hoping I got the girl…I didn’t
The children in costumes in Orlando’s airport
My roommate pulling a Marlboro Red from my lips
Salad with ranch, raisins and cheese as lunch - everyday
“Broken”- now free - caramel macchiato biscottis
Blood on my white vans
Abandoning friendship in the library
Spiked raspberry passion tea lemonades
Eating a tub of spicy tuna in Kat’s absence
The taste of my own tobacco
White shirts, black vests and Amelia’s jeggings
Finding a friend in Eli
Taking a hit outside Stefan’s warehouse
Preferring you went back to school than stay home
Sobering up just in time to make it home from Universal Studios
The resurgence of Yu-Gi-Oh, followed by 3v3 arenas
Knowing it still wouldn't work when we moved you in
#tinkerbelltuesday
About a Boy
That one indie song I loved
TJ, Joe, Travis, Marilyn, Vinnie and that old guy and his wife.
Standing in that courtroom all alone
Praying for the Williams’ kids
Cherishing game nights at Peter’s
The Martinelli’s!
Writing a poem about Jesus until midnight on Christmas
Dat Boy Daniel
That one time I knelt at the altar with Kendall
Writing in my journal under lamplight each night
Failing to be a good witness and for that, I’m sorry
The fast that brought the baptism of fire
The breakdown that brought you
Black Tulip’s Bali Blue Moon
Almost meeting Bob Goff
“What a Wonderful Wedding it Was, and What a Wonderful Wedding it Will Be”
Ten minute breaks accompanied by Ever Be and a ham and swiss croissant
Praying for Cheyenne into the night at Grandma Elda’s
Waiting for you to call from the other side of the world
The day I said, “I love hugging you.”
The next day when I mustered up the courage to say, “I love you.”
Massaging your feet by the pool
Toothpick
White chocolate macadamia nut coffee creamer
That first red oriental, indoor-outdoor area rug I sold
WPC 11
Researching portajohns on Saturday mornings
Being tested for HIV a week before our weeding
Saying, “I do.”
In haste, I remember:
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